This is definitely a coming of age song for me. Thematically it doesn't feel too different from other NB jams, but it's a slow burn of the fear that comes with giving your heart to somebody as an adult. In this song, I'm growing up. I think it very well encapsulates no longer feeling young and invincible and the pain of sleeping in the bed I've made for myself. This is without question one of the most important songs I've ever written.
lyrics
I don’t know how to be less heavy hearted
I’m affecting you in ways in which I never would have wanted
But, this is how I dream
Tangled up in sheets
I’m talking in my sleep again
I know you find it creepy
I just need some peace of mind
Give me a piece of your mind
‘Cause I’m scared if I let you in you’ll leave
This is why I never want to let people know me
It’s just cigarettes, alcohol, and weed
These are the things that we taste when we’re kissing
You people don’t know me at all
You think that you do from the words of a song
That I wrote five years ago
But I deserve the chance to grow
The only thing that’s stopping me
Is what these strangers think of me
Peace of mind
Give me a little more time
‘Cause I’m scared if I let you in you’ll leave
This is why I never want to let people know me
It’s just cigarettes, alcohol, and weed
These are the things that we taste when we’re kissing
But do you want the real me?
'Cause I get so unhappy
I kick and scream and just complain
When I'm the only one to blame
How could you really feel things?
I can't forgive a single word
I know that I will never learn
I know that when I open up you'll leave
This is why I never want to let people love me
No sense of self and insecurity
These are the things that I feel when I'm loving
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